December

Nostalgia fills the air. It's December once again.

We begin to remember people, events, emotions. Things that happened and those we wish happened. Those we worked for, those we did not expect. Those that we wished for, and those that we'd rather not have.

How was my year? I'd say, very different.

I was going over my THINGS TO DO which i listed during the start of 2004. 3 out of 7. Not even a passing grade yet. Nevertheless, I was especially pleased. I never got more than that!

This year, I have matured in my profession. Forced to mature if I may add. Adversity is a great teacher and it leaves you invigorated, not tired. It allows you to heat up and challenge who you are. And it's about time indeed. It's about time.

This year was a cathartic year for me as well. 2003 was a shocker and I had to live "inspite of" in 2004. But God's plans are wonderful and not easy to understand. What we think we need may not really be essential. What we think we can't live without are in fact garbage. And these plans unfolded while I was "hanging in there".

This year, I took time to learn from people - more than the usual. I realized that every encounter is a gift. A message even.

In 2004, I started to write again.

I also started to take concrete steps into what I want the next five years to be. And I am actually riding the road leading there.

Again, it's about time... ABOUT TIME!

I think a lot. Most of the times, I could not articulate my thoughts. But for even more times than that, I could not put them into action. But I think I have gone past that and slowly, my feet are starting to move....

So how will my 2005 look like?

2005 will be the advent of (yes.. getting ready, awaiting) a more mature Check. I have finally decided to mind, even care for my life. For so long, I have taken it easy. I allowed myself to float aimlessly from one pleasant activity to the other, each enjoyably enriching but does not seem part of a whole. Finally I have a plan! HAH!( or "huh?") This is gonna be a year of a lot of beginnings... I am so excited to step into it.

Sounds like a usual new year hype? I cannot discount that possibility... but only time will tell.

It's time to write a story. Mine.