How Much Is Enough?

I should know by this time that nothing in this world matters in the greater scheme of things but the love we give out.

I have a confession.

In my spirit, I feel a sense of scarcity- hunger, thirst for things that, given my previous statement shouldn't bother me at all.

I feel hurried and agitated again. I could be working in a resort and get paid to rest, dine and stroll by the beach and would still feel stressed. I need to address that. Now, even that sounded like an urgent mission. HA HA HA! I should know now that I am not my work. I work because I am. Although so far I have succeeded to force myself out of the door by 5:30pm (or at least not be doing anything related to work anymore) I find that my mind continues to float around work related topics anyway.

I feel there isn't enough to go around. I feel I need this, that, all else in between. And yet, I should remember that I got by six months with no work and no steady source of funds (except from some assignments here and there that even now, I could not believe came at the time I needed them the most!). I was spending on medication, paying off debts, going on vacation, going out on gimmicks (although this was terribly reduced), shelling out money when needed, all from my limited resources that seems to have a way of replenishing itself just enough to get by the present need. Now, if that is not providence, I do not know what is.

Why is it in plenty to do I feel the poorest? Why is it in times of peace do I feel the most restless? Why is it that in times of rest do I feel most tired?

What do I want? Or better yet, What can this life give me that can satisfy me? How much is enough?

Remind yourself constantly Check... NOTHING. You need Nothing. God is everything. Only HE IS ENOUGH.