The Good 'Ol Days...IS SPENT LIVING YOUR PRIMETIME

I have been wanting to write about this topic for a couple of weeks now. Since two Saturdays ago, I started reading my 'ol diaries in preparation for my annual retreat at the end of this month. I wanted to learn more about my life a bit more. I forget you know. I forget my failures and more so my successes especially at times when I feel out and empty. And so I went on a journey into my past life and so far, it has left me even more lonely.

LONELY because I realized how many people I lost along the way because I was afraid of being hurt. Lonely because I realized I let go of some real friends because I did not become loyal to them. Lonely because I would have wanted to keep them but my emotions got the better of me...wheather it was out of envy, disappointment, frustration or simple apathy. Now, remembering the old times I know I should make ammends and reconnect.

LONELY because I realized that despite being 30 years of age, I still have the same issues and the same fears, and the same squabbles. I felt so infantile reading my journals and more so realizing that after all these years I still do not have the courage to change. Change my relationship with my family especially my mom, change in expressing my feelings to people I like, change the way I just give up on dreams and being uncomfortable when opportunities present themselves.

LONELY because I realized I have achieved much in the past and yet, because of some turns here and there, the only one who should remember the kind of person I am totally forgot how it is to be the best me.

As of now, i bathe in some food for thought from Denis Waitley (Bob, remember?)....

THE GOOD 'OL DAYS is here and now. Every generation, he says, always look back to the good 'ol days but he says the good 'ol days should be the here and now because the opportunities that were not present then is present now. Because old problems were solved and that new problems are opportunities to invent solutions. And most importantly, this is the best time to ever be alive in history because after looking back, now I KNOW therefore I can DO.

And so, I promise to live LIFE in my primetime here and now. Prime Time Living he says is spent doing one of two things: tension relieving or life achieving. Take a pick.

Looking back and moving forward are not separate processes...they compliment each other.