Dullness

I can't believe I almost couldn't remember my log in details to this account. That speaks volumes about my writing habit...add to that my rusty spelling, my uncoordinated tenses and my drying up imagination.

Everytime something happens to me or a thought pops into mind, I create a tagline in my head to start me off writing. I even conserve them and refuse to put it in Facebook because I want to blog about it. But no. A phone call, my work, family and self just gets in the way and I know, like in praying, I am the one who lose when I do not write.

I find myself talking slow or being unable to express my exact thoughts. The dullness in my verbal skills surely have to be attributed to the fact that I have allowed laziness to get in the way of what I used to like doing.

Say for example the fact that since my Palawan trip, I have gone back to Singapore three times. Surely there was something to write bout that?! Like how much I miss the place, the people and the activities I used to do there. How I feel liberated at the very sight of the airport because finally I am alone and have nothing to worry about but myself. I would have love to write about SAM and VANGIE who constantly meet me almost at the very instant of my landing in Singapore. Eager to chit chat and always warmly welcoming me to their home. Most importantly, how I miss the liberty I had going to Church, to the center, to choir practice simply because I do not have to take care of a household.

Add to this my trip to Hong Kong with Jheng and Elise. This was hosted by Kat Perez Labian and her family, Nanad and Keia. I would have written about the Buddha, about the how to's of going to places away from the city. I should have written about the family that I have come to know there and how they kept us company when we had so much energy simply because we were on vacation. I so love them!

But to all these... no, I have not written a thing. Not even about the events in the company and in the house that has left me thinking... WHere is this headed? How did this become the plan for me Lord? My musing and aspirations, my doubts and my coming to terms with them.

Over the past months, I have been immersed in the business more than even I would have wanted to. I thought I could just oversee it from afar. But situations have forced me to take a better look, dip my body into the work and experience how it really is for my family members who have taken this position once before. I have already come to the conclusion that it was not bad at all...if you'd take "career" out of the picture.

By career I mean...to be known to be the go to person for a certain skill or stuff. You know, to be awarded, recognized for something.

But GOd is so good, He did not allow me to pass up to that one. I am presently creeping into a deal that would, if done properly, give me some semblance of a career while living up to family duties.

When that day is confirmed...sure I would IMMEDIATELY write about that, right?