3rd Day Thursday

Wala lang, I thought it rhymes. : )

Last night my mom said ;" Ay Thursday nanaman pala bukas!" and I stopped to look at her and smiled. It was a sweet smile.

For sometime now, I dreaded the day. It is the day that signals wheather I would have a turbulent weekend or a restful one. It is the day that dictates whether life is beautiful or not.

Well, not this time. At least not for this month.

It is my third day off from work (officially) although I have been chatting with clients in and out throughout the two days that I have been on leave. I enjoy it more this way. I enjoy talking to these wonderful people who I wouldn't have crossed path if not for Pramerica.

But yes, although I thought I was happy and that my body and mind can take the torture, It couldn't.

So here I am at home, with all the time in the world. I can take my sweet time in rising up in the morning and picking what activity to engage in and when.

But somehow, my personality still takes over. I was talking to a friend yesterday and I told her i realized that my "sense of urgency" which I put a lot of value in since I started working is just a euphemism for "aligaga" he he... in reality it does not help much.

Now I understand what my friend Pido was saying about abundance mentality. That i have abundance of time, friends, resources, success if I only allow the world to give me my fill. Instead of insanely seeking and running after all these... in truth, it just pushes them away.

I am not yet getting better but I believe I am getting there. I put up a sunny attitude in the house and make believe I am flawless... this is gonna be a great day!