Self-doubt

Less than a week into my writer escapade and already, my initial excitement has been replaced by self doubt. I am now on the verge of deleting my previous post announcing that I did get into a writing stint. Har har har....

Along side my artistic epiphany is my looking for a job with health insurance and dental... parang states no? :) I wish.

I am already accepted in one but when i got calls from other companies, i intentionally did not appear on the signing date and called to have it rescheduled after the start of training. Naninigurado lang. I do want to invest my time in company really long this time. Anyway, i already have an outlet for my wandering soul.

But as I told my friend Sandra who I miss terribly, after devoting my whole person in Pra, I feel traumatized with self investment again. I want to look for work that does not involve my emotion. I want work that will give me time to write. I want work that gives me enough money to keep on writing. I want work that does not require me to be creative to get to the top. Sounds like manual labor? IT does no?

So, will I thrive in that environment? I don't know. Let's see.

But I do believe there is such a work out there. Lord, Please show me....